It's hard enough doing permaculture while being a 24/7 caretaker for your spouse. It's hard enough doing permaculture by yourself again, while also taking care of someone with ptsd / paranoid schizophrenia in addition to your wife. However, I get things done, slowly, sometimes very slowly. However, as the Patient moves out, and I have been trying to wrap my head around starting a business as a farm & so forth I get discouraged. I cannot express how badly the Mrs. & I want to be a non-profit so I can get things rolling here with WWoofers and the like. The paperwork alone seems daunting at the moment, but I know I have the backing of important people in my community, still discouraged or perhaps the real description is nervousness & anxiety. Not sure, but I know I need to get this ball rolling asap.